I Am Dehz
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
How I feel right now...
It’s been a minute now since I gave up window shopping for love!!! Staying devoted to my grind!!! It’s hard to find a good woman these days it seems. Trying to live in every moment, and praying we’ll stay there. The greatest treasure is finding someone who puts as much back into you as you put into them and then still gladly going the extra mile! Maybe it’s a reach, and love is meant to be a chase. In a way, the desire gives me something to live for! Until then I can always find you in what I write, clearly it’s the easiest escape and feeling of being closer to you (love)!!!
Real Man…
Wouldn’t lie to them-selves, so they don’t lie to their woman
Don’t have to brag about their sex game, it speaks for it-self
Never leave our woman with our children to survive on their own
Lead their family and fill them with love, knowledge, desire for success…but most importantly to have a relationship with God
Knows when his woman is hurt, sad, depressed, angry, and in love
Works and provides for his family
Seek God for him-self and keeps him as their foundation
Protects his family and don’t invite harm into their home
Are faithful and strong but, do cry, do fear, and acknowledge when they’re beaten. But, always bounce back harder than ever before
Realize that it is our divine purpose to find a piece of us in our woman
Value the little things that we share together with our woman
Understand her sacrifice in the relationship to make things work as much as our own
Want to know God’s purpose for his life
Have self confidence and are not weak to peer pressure
Walk with a sense of value and determination
Fight for what’s right and stand against what is wrong
Shine in any environment
Listen and comprehend what our woman says…and appreciates it in return
Enjoy quality time no matter how big or small the entertainment
Do all these things from the beginning to the end before she becomes just a beautiful memory!!!!!
GOOD MEN STILL EXIST!!!!
Don’t have to brag about their sex game, it speaks for it-self
Never leave our woman with our children to survive on their own
Lead their family and fill them with love, knowledge, desire for success…but most importantly to have a relationship with God
Knows when his woman is hurt, sad, depressed, angry, and in love
Works and provides for his family
Seek God for him-self and keeps him as their foundation
Protects his family and don’t invite harm into their home
Are faithful and strong but, do cry, do fear, and acknowledge when they’re beaten. But, always bounce back harder than ever before
Realize that it is our divine purpose to find a piece of us in our woman
Value the little things that we share together with our woman
Understand her sacrifice in the relationship to make things work as much as our own
Want to know God’s purpose for his life
Have self confidence and are not weak to peer pressure
Walk with a sense of value and determination
Fight for what’s right and stand against what is wrong
Shine in any environment
Listen and comprehend what our woman says…and appreciates it in return
Enjoy quality time no matter how big or small the entertainment
Do all these things from the beginning to the end before she becomes just a beautiful memory!!!!!
GOOD MEN STILL EXIST!!!!
I am more, then what I am now!!!
So many are exiting this stage called life. Each one of us have a purpose that God created us for. It's up to us to figure out what it is...and give everything we have so that our life has supernatural meaning!!! That you stand out by making a path for others to follow. Why walk the earth in darkness...lost, not going after what God says is yours!!! God before me is more then the whole world against me!!! How strong is your faith? What can you look back on and say you made it from? I live to be more than a conquer but, a legacy for those who come after me!!!!! Rest in peace...Uncle Cliff aka (Bubba)!!!!!
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Music, Love and Peace...Michael Jackson!!!!
Every Christian should leave a legacy at the intense level of Michael Jackson. If not, we're living life in vain!!!! When has there ever been an impact across the world as big as this? Only one comes to mind and he died on the cross. No matter what people have to say about this man he truly displayed love, peace and the enjoyment of life even though most of his life he never experienced it. I’m praying for the Jackson family but, also for the music industry!!! Let’s get back to real music!!! Let’s get back to real love, peace, and talking about things that really matter in life. What artist do you know out today that comes anywhere close to Mike? I’ll wait….. None!!! How about artist becoming more like real artist and let’s stop sounding the same. Be who God created you to be and if others don’t agree then it’s not meant for you to be a part of that (group/record label). As artist we should be creating music that will last not music for today or cause everyone else is doing it!!! Love is stronger than hate no matter what you say or believe…MJ will never die after being passed on from generations and across the world. Mr. Jackson may be considered as immortal…or an icon for music, love and peace!!! How can someone give so much of their life to the world and people question if he's in heaven or not? In the end, let's put the cam on our-selves and make these same judgements...maybe then we can live in a better world!!! R.I.P. MICHAEL JACKSON!!!!!!
Still thinking...
What does it take to make a marriage last?
I’ve played with the thought of marriage for some time now. I’ve always wondered why people get married so quickly and most divorce quickly even if they take their time. I might not be like other guys cause of some of the statements I’m going to make. But ladies, believe there are guys who truly feel this way even though they might not say it. First off, REAL MAN want a beautiful wife that is his taste in women. But, as beautiful as you are on the outside your heart must match. Real men look for qualities that are of a friend, lover and mother to his children. The best start for me after this is done is to see what her family is like. Not, to say that this may not differ but, to view the family is a great way to see what you’ll be joining for life. That is the honest truth! It’s funny when the family is investigating me I’m doing the same to them and they have no clue. If you’re a big family person it would be difficult to be with someone whose family could care less about each other. It is always good to know about illnesses in the family as well as criminal records. Some may not care but, in the end you’re exposing this to your children one day if not known. The best question is “what is your credit like and can you manage money?”
For some reason people look at me differently when I tell them it would be hard for me to wife a woman who has been with a woman. There’s the silence and the look like a deer in headlights. Sorry, if this is you right now. But, controlling your thoughts at times can be hard and it takes a special individual to control them. I believe people’s past can heal over time but, the scar remains. I struggled to make good decisions but, always knew the things I did could come back to haunt me and the future I planned to create. How could I have a wife that has a thing for a woman? Nothing last that is unequally yoked. In the past as a single man, I was cool with it because it’s what the ladies may have enjoyed, so the young side of me back in the day would explore. But, as I grow older even though still very young it’s considered playing with fire to me. Knowing what I’m building in life and the ideal family would not make it to prosperity if I slip in a moment of play. The hardest thing for me to do years ago at a time like this is to think of ways to exit the situation. Instead, my mind is on how many different ways I want to please you and how far I can reach inside.
The game has changed in so many ways. I’ve always said that most thugs died off years ago when thugging was because of circumstances not just something cool to do. To be GQ and every ladies fantasy was in. This was the 90’s to me. When a lame was the one in the club throwing his money out cause he couldn’t speak to a woman. The one who didn’t know how to listen to her and understand what it was she’s going through. Looking like a fool because he didn’t have enough conversation to break down how much he wanted to be with her for a night. True enough playas had game back in the day but, it was with class and somewhat romantic. So deep that I’m not just making love to your body but your mind as well! I could even look at you and visualize what I’m going to do to your body and the reaction you would have. It was so good and you liked it but, the problem was I never touched you. Your mind is blown because you can’t understand why my kiss is different and the only one that gives you goose bumps. Getting ready in the bathroom wondering how come your knees shake and your hands sweat. Dam, I’m not even in your bed yet! With intimacy while you’re looking at me. No, really looking into my eyes deep into my soul and I’m looking at yours realizing how much I want you. How it feels so much like we’ve done this before. It started off one night bliss and now feels like a 2 years kiss. Now you’re confused thinking what have I done to my-self? What was supposed to be a one night thing now has you dreading never to experience this again. The ironic thing is that I feel the same way. Holding each other closely not knowing what the other is thinking but, wondering DAMN could you be the one! Our bodies were at play but, our spirits were too! Somewhere time stood still and I’m breathing the same as you.
Has this enjoyment become just something to do? As it was then with a feeling of passion even though still done now. The swagger is lost and not embedded in those who roam to conquer for a night. The dead walks only to multiply.
I’ve played with the thought of marriage for some time now. I’ve always wondered why people get married so quickly and most divorce quickly even if they take their time. I might not be like other guys cause of some of the statements I’m going to make. But ladies, believe there are guys who truly feel this way even though they might not say it. First off, REAL MAN want a beautiful wife that is his taste in women. But, as beautiful as you are on the outside your heart must match. Real men look for qualities that are of a friend, lover and mother to his children. The best start for me after this is done is to see what her family is like. Not, to say that this may not differ but, to view the family is a great way to see what you’ll be joining for life. That is the honest truth! It’s funny when the family is investigating me I’m doing the same to them and they have no clue. If you’re a big family person it would be difficult to be with someone whose family could care less about each other. It is always good to know about illnesses in the family as well as criminal records. Some may not care but, in the end you’re exposing this to your children one day if not known. The best question is “what is your credit like and can you manage money?”
For some reason people look at me differently when I tell them it would be hard for me to wife a woman who has been with a woman. There’s the silence and the look like a deer in headlights. Sorry, if this is you right now. But, controlling your thoughts at times can be hard and it takes a special individual to control them. I believe people’s past can heal over time but, the scar remains. I struggled to make good decisions but, always knew the things I did could come back to haunt me and the future I planned to create. How could I have a wife that has a thing for a woman? Nothing last that is unequally yoked. In the past as a single man, I was cool with it because it’s what the ladies may have enjoyed, so the young side of me back in the day would explore. But, as I grow older even though still very young it’s considered playing with fire to me. Knowing what I’m building in life and the ideal family would not make it to prosperity if I slip in a moment of play. The hardest thing for me to do years ago at a time like this is to think of ways to exit the situation. Instead, my mind is on how many different ways I want to please you and how far I can reach inside.
The game has changed in so many ways. I’ve always said that most thugs died off years ago when thugging was because of circumstances not just something cool to do. To be GQ and every ladies fantasy was in. This was the 90’s to me. When a lame was the one in the club throwing his money out cause he couldn’t speak to a woman. The one who didn’t know how to listen to her and understand what it was she’s going through. Looking like a fool because he didn’t have enough conversation to break down how much he wanted to be with her for a night. True enough playas had game back in the day but, it was with class and somewhat romantic. So deep that I’m not just making love to your body but your mind as well! I could even look at you and visualize what I’m going to do to your body and the reaction you would have. It was so good and you liked it but, the problem was I never touched you. Your mind is blown because you can’t understand why my kiss is different and the only one that gives you goose bumps. Getting ready in the bathroom wondering how come your knees shake and your hands sweat. Dam, I’m not even in your bed yet! With intimacy while you’re looking at me. No, really looking into my eyes deep into my soul and I’m looking at yours realizing how much I want you. How it feels so much like we’ve done this before. It started off one night bliss and now feels like a 2 years kiss. Now you’re confused thinking what have I done to my-self? What was supposed to be a one night thing now has you dreading never to experience this again. The ironic thing is that I feel the same way. Holding each other closely not knowing what the other is thinking but, wondering DAMN could you be the one! Our bodies were at play but, our spirits were too! Somewhere time stood still and I’m breathing the same as you.
Has this enjoyment become just something to do? As it was then with a feeling of passion even though still done now. The swagger is lost and not embedded in those who roam to conquer for a night. The dead walks only to multiply.
Thoughts from over night...
What will people think one day when they say my name? Did I truly live towards the purpose in which God created me for? My unborn children will one day learn of who I am and what I have become. Years after their birth what will they say about me? Is my struggle to further their future or have I done things selfishly not thinking about the legacy I should be preparing to leave behind for them? Did I give into traditional curses or fight against what has broken the elevation and stunt the growth of family achievement? My name is all I have and who shall ever speak it must know there was great power behind it.
For those who had usage and pass my name on were not in vain no matter how they used it. Cause in the end, it got me here. To a place where I can make a difference and change my stars no matter how poor, or how beaten and bruised I’ve been in my life. No matter the color of my skin, the level of education, or how long spiritually inclined I’ve been with God.
For me to be foolish and live my life as a leaf floating in the wind would be as stupid as to hold my breath not to want air. To allow my-self to engage with a woman who’s unstable in life when I’m unstable is to welcome destruction. But now that I have direction, I’m now in a better place to unite with someone who has direction as well. The first key is to know what periods of time you are in life. I feel as though before and after every moment of achievement or reward there’s a period of reconstruction. In the beginning is the preparation and in the end is the reflection. Preparation brings planning, drive and prayer. Reflection gives understanding, patience and confidence. There’s so much more but, this is off the top of my head.
For those who had usage and pass my name on were not in vain no matter how they used it. Cause in the end, it got me here. To a place where I can make a difference and change my stars no matter how poor, or how beaten and bruised I’ve been in my life. No matter the color of my skin, the level of education, or how long spiritually inclined I’ve been with God.
For me to be foolish and live my life as a leaf floating in the wind would be as stupid as to hold my breath not to want air. To allow my-self to engage with a woman who’s unstable in life when I’m unstable is to welcome destruction. But now that I have direction, I’m now in a better place to unite with someone who has direction as well. The first key is to know what periods of time you are in life. I feel as though before and after every moment of achievement or reward there’s a period of reconstruction. In the beginning is the preparation and in the end is the reflection. Preparation brings planning, drive and prayer. Reflection gives understanding, patience and confidence. There’s so much more but, this is off the top of my head.
**Dehz** (Official Music Video) has been released!!!
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